Ashka

I’ve a way with words, I’m so often told it,
and I do believe it, but once the quill
lifts off parchment, the pen off the page,
the fingertips off the keyboard,
I can no longer dictate their meanings.
I’ve heard them uttered previously,
by others, and I’ve had to hold my tongue -
the expression, the tone, the emphasis
all
wrong -
I have to remember the audience derives
their own meaning, I have to remember
their experience of MY words is valid,
but I -
I feel deficient in my communication;
at best I believe myself unseen or misunderstood,
at worst, invalidated - seen and heard
and yet not believed, as though they haggle
over the cost of my odyssey,
and question the clarity of my senses.
Today, I hear my own words
enunciated. Your voice clearly spells out
the pattern of the pain that danced upon my heart
that day, and I feel seen and heard and understood.
You speak my words with my meaning
and I feel intuited.

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