Can I Be

[Verse 1]
I don’t linger next to mirrors,
don’t let silence loiter long.
I keep my heart well guarded,
sing my truth in borrowed songs
but tonight the stage is empty,
just the dark and me and doubt
and a hope I never whisper
and a pain I never shout

[Chorus]
If I tell you who I am
will you leave like all the rest?
If I lay my armour down
could you hold what's in my chest?
I’m so tired of all the echoes
of the lies I’ve tried to love.
If I tell you who I am
could I ever be enough?

[Verse 2]
I laughed when I was breaking,
danced with daggers in my back.
I’ve had the voice, the fame,
but I’ve hidden all my cracks.
I swear I’m not trying to haunt you
I’m not trying to make you stay.
It’s just the truth that no one asks for,
that I never dare to say:

[Chorus]
If I tell you who I am
will you leave like all the rest?
If I lay my armour down
could you hold what's in my chest?
I’m so tired of all the echoes
of the lies I’ve tried to love
If I tell you who I am
could it ever be enough?

[Bridge]
I don’t need you to fix it
I just need to be seen
not the version you imagined
but the one who’s caught in between

[Chorus]
If I tell you who I am
will you leave like all the rest?
If I lay my armour down
could you hold what's in my chest?
I’m so tired of the echoes
of the lies I’ve tried to love
If I tell you who I am
could it ever be enough?

[Final Chorus/Outro]
I will tell you who I am,
drop the mask and not pretend.
I will show you every crack,
every tear I’ve tried to mend.
I’ve been singing for the shadows
but tonight I sing for light.
If I tell you who I am…
…can I be her for just one night?
(Can I be her?)
…can I be her
for just one night?
Can I be her
for just
one
night?

(A song in E minor; from Dot, for Maelen, in the tower)

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